15:15 | November 27, 2018
I never knew how it felt to loose someone close to you, until the 27th of July 2018. Waking up in Croatia and getting the news that my little baby got poisoned and that my mum had taken him to the hospital was terrifying. My little baby, who was 7 years and never had any issues with the health, had to undergo a surgery. The chances for him to make it was minimal, like the chances for me to take the first flight home to be able to see him one last time. He didn’t make it and my heart broke. In thousand of pieces. A pain that I can’t describe. Today it’s four months since he left and it still feels unreal and I’m wondering if it’s ever going to feel real. No one, who hasn’t had a dog, will understand. He was my little baby, my happiness, my joy and when everything in my life went wrong, he was always here. Life is unfair and one thing that I have learnt from this is that you never should take anything in this world for granted. Anything or anyone. Take care of your close ones, tell them everyday how much they mean to you, and don’t underestimate the time because you never know what can happen the next minute. Now I’m going to take a walk, the walk that we always did together and fill my heart with all the love you gave me and then I’m going to keep on missing you until that day we meet again. Because I know that we will.
For those of you who maybe noticed the picture with a bird, I have to tell you about this day. Exactly 2 months after Rambo passed away, that morning when my mum was on her way to me, she saw this little bird right outside my gate, just standing there. She thought that the bird was hurt and when she stepped towards the bird, the bird didnt move. My mum lifted up the bird and brought it to my apartment. She held the bird in her hands and the bird didn’t do anything. Imagine that this is a small bird who normally would be so scared. I touched it, I gave it some water and tried with oats, I even opened up the balcony so that the bird could fly away, but it didn’t react to anything. Then after about 15 minutes, the bird just flew away like nothing. It was like a sign that touched both of us right in the heart. I am not a person who believes in life after death, I’m not religious and I don’t even know If I believe in god. Sometimes I do, sometimes I dont. But this situation really touched me and in all of this sorrow, I saw a light and after this situation, I’m sure that I will see him again <3 Sleep tight my little angel, until we meet again.